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• Awesome Day!!!!!

  11/6/07 13 Comments

  A busy hectic day with so many postive outcomes its great and the finale to the day was spectacular!!

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• Short and Sweet

  9/24/07 12 Comments

  Just a quick note to yet again apologise for not being around for over 2 months (hmmm do I get a refund from the site for that? lol I think not somehow)

  Will fill you guys in later whats been up - will be an even bigger epic rant than one of Sandy's I think, so be warned!!!!!

  Thanks to Jess my SL sister who I love so much and who spoke to me over the weekend bless that girls heart shes a star!!! and bless you all for caring.

  I am quite useless at times and forget this is the only means of contact for some of you to me and leaving a blank void after being so good at updating my blogs is a bit worrying for the ones who care, for that I do sincerely apologise...........

  I'll write my epic blog in word then paste it up, as this site has the tendency to time me out. In the meantime however just want to say that I think you guys are great, and I truly am touched by your persistence to not let me just disappear........ thats a true friendship........ Criss was our main reason to join this site, but the bonds we have made is what keep us here!!!!!!!!!!

  Loyal love to my special friends..... when the epic rant is complete I'll set about reading the latest drama's in everyone elses lives, though from reading Jess's blog it appears theres strange things afoot on this site already...

  Hugs to you all Jacqs xxxxx

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• Over Excited

  6/5/07 18 Comments

  OHHHHHH man what perfect timing......... last night I switched on the webcast from NYC just in time to see Criss singing along to 'Mind Freak' then blowing kisses and thanking 'The Loyal' from the bottom of his heart - he is beyond a level I can describe for an individual - he feeds off the love of us Loyals and does what he does for us .........

  Thanks for enabling the 'loyals' across the world to experience this cement block demonstration with you

  

  

  

  

  

  

  

  Loyal Love Jax xxxxx

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• I'm Back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  6/1/07 9 Comments

  Hello dear dear loyals

  Please accept my sincere apologies for being so sparce with updates and leaving you guys in 'limbo' worried about me - I am so very sorry for doing that - b ut I am really touched you guys care so much...........

  So I am about to push the last few weeks behind me after filling you on the events.............

  Well following on from previous blog I had to see a consultant at Harley Street..........this was an appointment arranged by my Solicitors fighting for my damage award for car accident....... anyway I went along and took my freind - we were so not impressed - first thing we noticed was tall ceilings with old cob webs in the corners and in the centre of the waiting room was a massive arrangement of lillies so over powering we could hardly breathe urghhhhhhh.......... bad choice of flowers.... windows would not open and the waiting room was full so it was really uncomfortably hot!!!!!!!!!!!

  So anyway my name is called and we are lead to this tiny consultants room - again very hot....... he sits me down and says - I am not here to treat you young lady just prepare a report for the court - so tell me your story......... off I went telling him the events and he's humming and arrring as i'm going through the boring story I am sick of telling people........... then he says OK lets check your movements...............

  Here we go bend, twist, neck movements GRRRRRRRRR - why do they make you do them knowing they make you hurt like heck?

  Anyway I asked about the 'break' in my neck - he said oh thats nothing L5 has no real main duty in your neck the break is like a needle in a haystack forget it - my mouth fell to the floor - heres a top consultant telling me a break in my neck we no big deal............. he also concluded (now how I have no idea) that ALL my symptoms from the car accident had calmed down and what I am left with is 'chronic pain syndrome' that I just have to live with - Q MASSIVE SMACK TO FACE!!!!!!

  My friends eyes went wide and I was just speechless - after that anything he had to say I just switched off to I'd had enough.................. so I graciously sat there and just looked into space ignoring him completely...... when he'd finished I said thank you goodbye walked out and said to my friend WTF was that all about????? she was speechless to ........... so I went back to her place for the rest of day and watched the FA cup final on TV with a house full - that helped me forget the issues of the day.........

  Went to work tuesday - we had a major meeting with our auditors and I was 15 mins late due the Cutty Sark being set alight and all my trains into London being disrupted :-( anyway I hop into this meeting and was grilled for 90mins on everything and anything I do - when it was over my Director and my boss both came up to me and said WE ARE SOOOOOOOOOOOOO GLAD YOU WERE THERE.......... thumbs up for you all round your a star....... bless em hehehe

  Thursday I went to see my doc for more meds and found out he retiring ............ do I need anymore bad news? lol I grabbed his arm and said 'you can't leave I'm not better yet' sad huh.......... I did however tell him about the consultants visit and the fact the MRI was off........ he seemed stunned and said come back to see me before I retire on 30th June I want to see the report they send us and I'm referring you to a higher consultant for a 2nd opinion, you will find no peace until you get answers and treating symptoms does not give you answers........ the MRI will (so sounds like its back on again - limbo up limbo down my head and heart are shot to pieces)

  So then after all this information overload I get my CA mindfreak stuff had to pay a custom's duty of £14.54 was not impressed with that but was so pleased I actually got it and when I read the note he wrote to us all I was welling up............

  I had a very bad day wednesday for no reason whatsoever I went into an uncontrollable crying session over my dad.......... maybe I just blocked his death out too long and all this upset of the hospital set my emotions into overdrive......... and bits of my dad and the grief came out.............

  Got over that (for now) and went to work yesterday when I was jumped on by the company auditors asking this that and the other grrrrrrrrr they are doing their job I know but some of the questions are so dumb....... did a real late night tooo...........did not get home till 10pm ..........but yesterday I also got a letter from our company Director on behalf of the board we are governed by - a huge thanks for being the companies pension trustee for the last 6 years and looking after everyones interests and keeping within compliance rules - I was really choked to get recognition from such a high level in our company - it was really sweet...........

  Today go figure the office suffered another powercut ...............

  Well that's the brief version of my week so far ........ I'm gonna catch up with each and everyone of you guys real soon I've missed our blog fests and reading what you all been up to - but as you can appreciate my heads not been really in any place to focus on anything for a bit......

  Thanks for your kind thoughts and prayers - they truly did make a difference........ like you have no idea..........

  God bless you all Jax xxxxxxxxxx

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• HEY EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!

  5/21/07 10 Comments

  Firstly my dear dear friends I am so very sorry for not updating my blog, it been a bit of a weird week and this could well turn into a Jacqs epic essay that beats one of Sandy's lol

  Ok lets back track to Wednesday - I woke up feeling very uneasy about the day, couldn't concentrate on anything whatsoever...... I tried to get my head around some office work but I just wasn't in that 'zone' so I took a long soak in the bath and tried to forget what was coming......

  It got to about 3.30pm (appt was 3.50pm) so I had to leave, Dave said he'd come with me b ut as ever was messing about so much so I had to leave without him...... I rang his phone saying 'Thanks for stitching me up Dave...... when I need you most - you leave me stranded' and I drove to the hospital angry....

  Bizarrely enough the anger took the edge off the fear and I just drove right up to the hospital with no fear whatsoever - poor kid had done me the biggest favour of my life!!!!

  Anyway - I go in and the place is like an airport waiting lounge........... I end up in the wrong area and I'm redirected to the 'Fracture Clinic' - there I am all alone in waiting room looking at clock when I felt this massive sense of comfort surround me like a blanket.......... was THE most powerful sense I have felt in ages and I am convinced it was you guys thinking of me - I felt so comforted I was actually smiling while I sat there.........

  Anyway appointment was 3.50pm, at 4.50pm am still waiting ......... blooming Doctors urghhhhhhhh...... so then I'm called in and theres the consultant looking at the x ray of the fracture in my neck on a massive pc screen (thinking about it I should have asked for a copy lol)

  He says I won't be having another MRI as I refused the first one and it was in fact only a luxury for him to get a better idea what was going on in my body.......... I asked if I could have an open MRI and he said NO we only do them if surgery is needed and you are not about to have surgery............ so I was a bit irritated by his tone b ut carried on............ then he says where in the neck does it hurt?? I pointed to the mid section of my neck at back and he snapped back at me saying - I can't see that under your hair can i? move your hair............ GRRRRRRRRR the anger was elevating in me.......... then he starts pushing the neck vertebra one by one.......... gets to the broken one I hit the roof - sure he did it on purpose just to get back at me.......... so anyway I say - is that it then you are writing me off? Did I say that he snaps back......... i think what you need is physio ............. YAWN!!!!!!!!!!!! been there done that works great till it stops and I did comment I was under angerlates with a physio.......... so then he says you need acupuncture............... YAWN !!!!!!!!!!!! had that too works fantastic apart from violent headaches and obviously when the course finshes you have to go private and that costs £35.00 hr.......... I sarcastically asked him would he pay lol.......... he didn't seen the least impressed with me whatsoever, but to be fair i've been in 'limbo' since January scared of what they were going to do and now they are proposing nothing I'm back to square one and pill popping to remain here............

  So then I'm handed a 'Clinic Physio Referral' and have to walk half a mile to the other side of theis hospital to physio........ get there and when the receptionist finally re appeared she said ohhhhhhh a break you'll be on our 'acute' waiting list shouldn't be more than 2 weeks lol I almost burst out laughing ACUTE WAITING LIST...... it happened in December 2005....... so now I'm waiting for that fun to start...............I walked outside the hospital and Dave had ran 2 1/2 miles up to the hospital and had been looking for me BLESS HIM.......... I just wanted to hug him......... he can be a pain in the butt at times b ut I love him to death

  Ok so now we are at Thursday - I went into work and had a chat with my boss about the events of wednesday and he was in total shock of what was said to me and the fact I've been so heavily medicated pending this appointment when if they had told me in January I'd never have one again I'd have gotten over it faster on my own........... ended up doing a very very long day in office stayed until 8pm IDIOT I am but while I was in the office the lights started flickering - no one paid any attention but I.T..............but I needed to get some stuff done that had to be done.......... Boy was I beat when I got home......... almost fit to collapse, Dave had been ringing me every half hour from 5.30pm asking how much longer I'd be lol - He likes a routine that lad......... so I get home have dinner and collapse into bed

  Friday morning - I'm working from home, there's some pension stuff that is mega urgent and I log on and start doing some work then after about an hour my connection breaks so I ring up my friend and ask her to reboot my office PC - turns out those lights flickering on thursday was a sign of bad things coming - the whole of the office had a massive power outage BIGTIME - the elevators stopped working, the lights went off, the computers all shut down and the loo's refused to flush..... so everyone went to the pub lol - waste of a work day but hey it was sunny so why should I stress hehehe

  Saturday arrives and its the second hospital appointment - this one at Harley Street....... I get up early which actually was a mega struggle ........ I drive over to my freinds as she insisted on coming with me and to be fair she made me feel a whole lot calmer....... so we get to london and I am totally convinced Harley Street is the back of a large dept store called selfridges...... so we get the underground and get off just by the department store.......... convinced I am right we start walking....... I went into a newsagents just to confirm and he agreed we were on the right track......... after five mins walking straight we figured we should ask someone else ohhhhhhhh we had to turn right and head a few blocks.......... glad we stopped that woman lol............ so we turn left and carry on walking an d walking and walking then ask someone else......... few more blocks then turn right cool nearlly there........... we realised we'd walked in a complete circle and if we'd walked behind the other massive dept store on the same street we were less than 2 m ns from the place urghhhhhhhhhh how irritating..........we are still in time however and have enough time to catch a quick coffee sitting outside in the lovely cool air - ws so peaceful....... but we had to get up and get to the appointment

  there is more to this but the darn website just timed it out and I am not re writing it tonight - will finish the blog tomorrow............................

  Thanks for your prayers my dear friends its truly touched me and made this whole ordeal seem insignificant in the grand scheme of things..........

  Love you all Jacqs xxxx

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